In life sometimes you feel like you've got something to prove... oft times it's to others.
This is deflection though because the person you need to prove these things to is yourself.
People say things to you, and the people that know you the best can say something and it can cut you like a knife. I myself, take criticism very hard even if I know that, that criticism came from a place that was neither constructive or fair, was in fact destructive and unfair.
So, even though I know it isn't true it forces you to look at yourself closer. Who am I?
All the big ifs in life - and you think about the sacrifice and the time that you invest in the most important pieces in your life and it is so worth it. So worth it.
When things get rough it is about finding a soft spot - I do this well.
Sometimes, you've got to love yourself despite your flaws. Yeah, I have them, yeah, most people know about them... am I going to let you cut me down for them? HELL NO
Despite my flaws
- Overly Non Confrontational
- Closed off in regards to my feelings
- Very little initiative
I have a whole lot of great attributes too!
- Super Nice
- Love my kids
I would keep going on both lists but this is not the point and I don't want to totally make myself seem either great or terrible... the point is this. There is a plight to our existence.
That plight is the one we have with ourselves, the one that keeps you awake at night wondering.
Am I that bad? Did I do something that terrible?
And the answer is always no, even if it is yes you have to say no. Because we have to love ourselves and the second we can do that wholeheartedly the closer we are to being better, not just at living but loving one another.
It's not sufficient to say that there are people that want to make others feel small. It is not sufficient to say that there are people who enjoy the failures of others. Because these people (and I do believe they are few) have sick souls. Their enjoyment in the misery of others comes simply from knowing that you are now feeling their wretched self loathing.
And so you have to love yourself. Love yourself for all your "things" Good or bad - embrace them and know them.
And I will end this with a lame quote I saw on facebook
"What you spent years building, someone could destroy overnight.